Happy 3 years and 4 months, little boy!
Yesterday, you turned the big 4-0 and it also happened to be your late Ang-kong's birthday.
When you were born, I had to reflect on how to tell you about your Ang-kong (your papa's Papa) who died about 6 years ago. I wanted to make sure that you have memories of him and to realize that he has shaped your life, albeit indirectly, through your Papa.
When we pray at night, we would say goodnight to your Gwa-kong and to your Ang-kong in heaven. I don't think you understand the concept of heaven at this age, but you are slowly understanding the concept that some things (and some people) die.
I've never met your Ang-kong but, from all the stories your Papa shares and from accounts of your Papa's friends, your Ang-kong was a very cool guy.
He was very attentive to your Papa and took him on many adventures when he was much younger. They loved to play a lot. (One of these days -- when you are much older, your Papa will share with you the story of a jeep, a cemetery and your Ang-kong. O_O)
I want you to have the same kind of childhood --
When you are older, I want you to remember the time when we ate at a restaurant and you spilled water on yourself (because we let you hold the bottle) and you had to spend the rest of your meal in diapers because we didn't bring an extra pair of shorts.
I want you to smile as you remember your visits to Salcedo Weekend Market and all the smells, sights and sounds.
I want to sit and laugh with you someday as we remember the many nights we would squeeze into my double-sized bed with Siobe sleeping beside us as we watch your nighttime show.
The memory thing isn't a one-way street -- you have given me so many wonderful memories that I know I will remember forever --
This month, my favorite memories are:
- You singing that Korean song that is constantly playing on the radio while shaking your hips. (I guess it's a good way for you to practice your pronouns. ~sigh~)
- You taking out your doctor's kit when you found out I wasn't feeling well and you earnestly tried to make me feel better by jabbing me twice with your injection.
- The "I Love You, Papa." and "I Love You, Mama." every night.
- How you mix (and mangle) your prepositions. "The lizard is over there behind inside."
- The quiet and lovely way you sang "Happy Birthday" to your Ang-kong yesterday while holding your papa's hand.
When you were born, people were asking me what I wished for for you -- many were expecting me to say "Smart and Successful" -- what I did say was "Happy and Loving" --
And I got my wish, little boy.
Thank you for being you (and for being so much more.)